saints in the shadows
send them a kiss
my face on backwards
blue cemetery light
wide open
accept january breeze
before this place
before this time
somewhere else
someone else
saints in the shadows
send them a kiss
my face on backwards
blue cemetery light
wide open
accept january breeze
before this place
before this time
somewhere else
someone else
Not same; but are in meaning and
not meaning
and yellow hands and
penny-a-pocket, What? Or is it?
Or the tradition of analytic swans, their
spread of hollow calm.
Yes we are run. And come in
pursuit of frail concerns.
Our ears are wrapped
in gauze, alongside the pool,
frailed. Before
Jahweh’s exultation, lungs
peeled. Seem to be seen
as a struggle with
pulse before shut off the lamps
and wish for flame.
In spite of. At the bottom
of the world, supine
on beds of dire herbs.
Crazy-headed by the fountain
of slow-quick.
Lie there, you, a riddle under
dimestore sheets, such as washed on
the world’s last day and redolent
of tattoo breeze.
As fallen into soft lumps, part
and parcel, measured in rattled
shades, slanted to the sight
of not them and not when.
Hey there honey,
nudge and a wink,
shove me loose-back, put down
toe-to-top, roll thin lines with
that silly mouth, take guilty
gilded nourishment from a lord-god
not anywhere we can point to.
The voice of your pulse, a
hemlock whisper under my finger
and tucked into the mattress,
maybe. Where bitter-sided mites
nibble and invisible magnets
draw us together in release of
days. And what were you once,
a ghost kiting high on chill-bone
breeze. No care about cold or
height. Slipped by me across
ruined roofs, through bare elms,
the road a melting narrow. Past
the sign that read SLOW. Past
fields where sunflowers gamed
a path of no retrace. SLOW to the
never warm winter and flecks
in the fog pretending to be crows.
in pale moment cut/half
midnight pictures thread
them on string stolen
from the master’s drawer days
counted out go full
circle to draw pictures of red oceans
where horses pace out
minuets borrowed/taken from
the celebration of
sunrise prayers caught
in our heads like choral music and
secrets in the caravan
dunes their hidden
numerology count by two’s
to eleven count
back again long past zero our
nameless sons lay their
cheeks their lips
on the mudsill their eyes
on cherry trees burn at the foot
of the lord’s mountain
like a face in the
mirror. like a face looking
back. but how
is that his look? how
are those his eyes
and cheeks and not a woman
bright under
vernal sun. she lies
by a crossroads. today
and tomorrow. come
far and far, and still far to
go before reaching
a peaceful river
and free
to sail away.
swallow panic?
wonder about ill-fated circumstance
when it’s more satisfying to paint
fields of bluebells?
we’re always angry with the
sky. but is that the sky’s fault?
and when longboats
sink into the sea,
when birds nest in smoke, is
that the time for us bow towards
the east with the grace
of eagles?
know what I know that
sunlight never
falls in neat lines even when
it does
after the calamity of
storms when becoming
a series of endpoints reaching
down the mountain
the mountain that
knows what I
know that discomfort is a
concept evolved
by hope
in a church whose corners
have been planed
smooth
the church that knows
what I know
how perfection sells itself
on unlikely corners
everywhere and
nowhere on any map
we might scribble while reeling from bad
wine
when we lean back against the
overpass railing, collect raindrops
on our fingers and name children
never to be born. engage in
arguments with green lightning.
your obsession with electricity.
your love of atmospheric
molecules hellbent in disarray.
that connect us as diesels blow
by below in a rush of petroleum
wind. we load our pockets with
static flame. fall weightless
into forty years from now and
a remembrance of thunder’s
haunted soliloquy.
fly again into the realm
of crows
bird-brained
and blank-lusted taken in by their
glassy eyes and oily wings washed
by damnation thunder becoming
(willingly)
a brief wisp
of the hellish weather
created by
sullen angels
but what it is, before
brain tells hand to move,
before thought inspires.
but thought, or random
impulse, or glitch of
electrical origin,
or formed by someone
else’s imagination.
the uncertainty to follow
vague whims, take one
of many roads. draw
near a destination
not on any map.